Weekly intention draw: King of Cups inverted
Kindness is my responsibility
Cutting words my tyranny
Seeking validation for such much as wanting to be loved or admired
Through the spiral of the shell I hide just out of sight in the darkness
With eyes and hands preoccupied, I thread shoelaces, listening to that validation, feeling it with pride
Not able to look at the one giving me what I need
because they would see how exorbitantly happy they made me, see it in my eyes, invalidating again, exorbitant, taking it back
Hiding, fearing my validation will be taken away - 7 of Cups
Fantasies preferred to reality. Need to try, need to show up, need to reveal
myself. Manifest. The conflict is only fear. It is not reasonable to expect that
the ones who see me and love me will invalidate me. There is no one I should
trust more. If not them, then whom? The ones I fear are the ones I love the
most.
I can make my fantasies real. Wouldn't that be better?
Don't just dream it, live it.
Validation for the love I need - Ten of Pentacles
It would be nice if my emotional wellbeing wasn't dependent on having it all. Never satisfied. I don't need others' feelings. I also don't need their wants. Why do I need that validation over and over, over and over, repeat, repeat. Break the cycle with the 7 of cups. Manifest it within myself. My dreams are magic.
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